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Friday, December 11, 2009


11 December 2009
Friday- TGIF







*When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast*



*I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear*
*Flowers competing for the sun
Years go by and I'm here still waiting
Withering where some snowman was*
*Mirror mirror where's the crystal palace
But I only can see myself
Skating around the truth who I am
But I know dad the ice is getting thin*
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I wonder when....
When you would realize my feelings for you.
and not treat it as translucent.

I don't want to hear things have change.
It didn't. It's you who change.
How long can Patience last?
I'm still waiting, like a stupid fool,
and it seems it doesn't matter to you at all.
I don't know how much longer I can hold on,
Something tells me, its not very long
As I seach for this crystal palce,
all that is left, is me.
When the truth is what I perceive,
I know, the end is not very near.
I'm trying so hard to keep us together
But it seems
the harder I try,
The further apart we get.
I'm giving up...

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Thursday, December 10, 2009


10 December 2009
Thursday
-would you still be with me?


Brings me to the point,
WHAT IS LOVE?

Why is this word even created?
What was going through the mind of this creator at this point?

What make Love, love?

To me, its just a bundle of feelings, to know that someone cares.
To know that, we are not alone.

But why do we humans fears to be lonely?
If only we could live w/o being afraid of being lonely,
Then we wouldn't have to be hurt over and over again,
Doing foolish stuff for your other half, whose probably not noticing!

Why is it,
That we need to feel secure?
Is security that important?

Why Why Why,
I don't know either.
If only someone could answer all this curious bubble,
then maybe I'll be happier =)

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Saturday, December 5, 2009


5 December 2009
Friday

TGIF
and I wish time could stop moving so QUICKLY!

7 more days to Penang


So little time, So much things left undone =(





It's time to make my way
Into the world i knew
Take back all of these times
That i gave in to you
I'm nevertheless more cautious
Don't blame me for this, Because you put me through shits
and I guess its time to learn

You know, it is said,
"Never use the same trick twice"
That's how exactly why I became Cautious.
I'm so familiarize with all your BS
and I don't want to get angry with you.
I know we will live it through this mess!
I just know it!
I'll just keep praying...


Speaking about prayers,
I feel so obliged to tell EVERYONE,
how amazing GOD can be!

Just the other day, I was feeling so rather upset and sunken,
I decided to say a prayer,
and GUESS what?
Within minutes,
The person whom i really wanted to speak and misses so much,Spoke to me.

and the next day,
Another of My Problem was "SOMEWHAT" resolved.
This problem was a Test of whose going to speak first,
I was praying that something, somewhere, somewhat,
a miracle would take place, and we would just talk, either way works =)
and our walls were broken down.

Though not completely, but its a first step to another!

Though its not all my prayers were answered,
I came to the conclusion that,
GOD choses the dearest and MOST important one for you.
and obviously, HE knew I was being greedy =x

I'm not saying that, everyone should just start praying
And wait for miracles like this to happen.
BECAUSE, THEY DON'T.
GOD, only helps those that help themselves.
and if all else fails, GOD will do the job =)
Expectations = Disappointment
I've learn not to expect anything
and I trust you to expect something.
But, It didn't worked out!
Trust = Dissappointment and HURT
P/s: Praise the LORD!

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Friday, December 4, 2009


3 December 2009
Thursday





Anything that's worth having
Is sure worth fighting for
Quit is out of the question
When it gets tough, got to fight some more
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight,

fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight,fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for !




Yes, I'm disappointed with what you did today.
But yet, I'm happy when you protected me =)
Tell me,
Should I overlook this?


P/s: Because the LORD answers all my prayers!




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Monday, November 30, 2009


29 November 2009
Sunday






I wish every goodbye was a second chance =(

To hell with everything that's happening right now.
The only thing that is keeping me going is :

Going out with future lover on Thursday
Looking at present lover everyday besides sat and sun
and SS501 Korean dude lookalike from DB!
I wonder why middle lover doesn't talk to me now =x
I miss him so much....im sad
I wonder why we don't feel the immediate love we already have
but sought after those that are so hard to get.

We argue and fight over whats not ours
and find that others are taking it for granted.
DID we ever realize that We ourselves are also like that.

I realize that,
what we dislike and try to not be categorize under that class,
we soon become part of them sub-conscientiously.
I wonder why?
Such that being humane is a ridicule


Anyway, I've decided to stick close to what I've decided.
After tonight, I'm more sure of whats to be and what not to be.
Is this a coincidence?
why do my least expected guy friends always pop out
and provide nice support when its not them i wanted.
I'm shocked at all his wise words!
but it really made me feel better=)
and YES, a hand is better than a rope

Knowing is GOOD
But yet getting TRAP
is but a jump into a hole.
The only help is YOURSELF.

And YES, I WILL HELP MYSELF!

I shall keep my faith going in HIM
that HE would help me get out of this.
I consume my thoughts
As I rest in HIM,
I’m now in love,With a Saviour
Bearing the marks of his LOVE
P/s:Everyone is gotta hurt you sooner or later. choose the right/worth one to do so.
I think I have and I will not regret!
If only,
You'll cry One tear for me
I'm not afraid of What I have to say
This is my one and Only voice left...

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Friday, November 27, 2009


27 November 2009
Friday



Happy Hari Raya Haji =)




Hope everyone out there is enjoying this holiday!
Just like how I'm trying to.

To see things on a postitive light,
"Nothing ventured, Nothing gain" is what I would say.












Looking back at the beginning of this , And how life was
Just you and me loving all of our friends
Living life like an ocean


But now the current's only pulling me down
It’s getting harder too breath
and It won’t be to long that I will be going under..




I guess Nwee was right.
It time to FOCUS!
To start focusing on whats right!
I'm just looking forward to thursday =)
because the seminar gang would be going! yeepee

Don't Ask, Don't Tell.
I'm sick and tired of "all things gone wrong"



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Friday, November 20, 2009


20 November 2009
Friday

I finally understood, my position in this Friendship.
Whatever!, I'm telling myself, I'm not going to be "SO DAMN NICE TO YOU"
Tried keeping it inside me since monday, but I'm going bonkers soon~

I GOTTA RANT...GOTTA RANT
JUST GOTTA RANT!!!


Sigh,
I really want to change my perception of everything.
But, with her around, I just can't.
REALLY REALLY DON'T LIKE HER! OMG!!!!

Change is inevitable,
But CHANGE IS HARD!

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